I feel like things are so good right now. I'm scared to even say it out loud. How long will this feeling last? My home life is so very good, but that's my constant. It's when I'm out in the world being me, all by myself, that things are hard. I didnt remember how to be proud of myself or what it felt like to be confident and happy professionally. I didnt know that I could enjoy going to work. I'm certain I'll revert to my usual miserabilism eventually, but oh I want this good feeling to stay so very badly.